I got weak around 2:25 pm. I just finished lunch and was feeling nostalgic. No one was around to distract me. I poked my head in his office, against all better judgment. Then, miraculously, my friend replied with an email that helped restore faith in myself. This was probably the most important email I’ve read in a while.
first of all. STOP hating yourself. Your decisions are yours. You can
do whatever your want as long as it’s your decision. No one makes you
do anything, and no one will ridicule you for any action.
I think you should re-write him an email saying.
“ok. now, seriously, this is my LAST email to you. Please STOP
contacting me through any form of communication. I do not want to have
any communication with you. I am taking time for myself right now and
whether anything has changed is a moot point. Just don’t contact me at
all. please respect my decision”
seriously. it does not matter if he changes his mind and wants to be
together, because he will revert back. he is not able to change who he
is. and you are not able to change who you are. so, just leave it. do
not even think about getting back together for 3 MONTHS. then you can
think about it. maybe 3 months of twice weekly therapy will help him
but he is not going to get better with you around too. just like, you
can’t get over him if you keep talking to him.
Be strong. Can you please tell _____, that whenever she sees you
walking over to him to stage an intervention. Also, do not
underestimate your own abilities. He’s made you think that you are this
weak girl, also he made you believe that you are a unreasonable and
overemotional girl. He is wrong. Show him how wrong he is…how you are
more mature, rational and strong that he gave you credit for.”